Monday, May 05, 2008

An Adequate Movie and the Weight Off of My Shoulders

Well, Paige and I went to see Shutter yesterday. It scared the freaking hell out of me, but it was really good. I don't like spoilers, so, go see it. :P

Well, yesterday I had another blow-out with Tiffani. It was one of those things where I had something really important to discuss and was interrupted.

I ended up leaving and going up to Wal*Mart and sitting in the car with Paige while I bitched for an hour, after which I made the decision to call Tiffani, even though I left without saying or having any intention to say goodbye.

As the phone was ringing my palms began to sweat even though I was as cold as the arctic snow. We spoke for forty minutes, I just sitting in the parking lot, and she just sitting in her room, Paige listening quietly, save for the times when she had an opinion, which usually wasn't good.

The more I listened the more I thought about sitting in the emergency room and hoping that I hadn't died just so that I could've told everyone how much I loved them and how much I appreciated everything they had done for me.

Jeanna, my sister, who prayed for me when I was afraid; Dustin, Bobby and Alix; my baby brothers forevermore. My cousin, Lexa, who is the coolest cat in town. Devan, who is my brother and friend; Cat, who I love with all of my heart. We share more in common than just being goofy.

The Maplewood gang; Sean, Gene, Corey, Korey, Ray, Nard, Papa Giorgio, Tim, Amanda, SheriLyn; who made my graduating experience more than excellent.

My work buddies, A'ngel, Dustin, Ryan, Aaron, Cutter, Ron, Katie, Brad, Deanna, Vamp, Tim, Mike, Brian, Holly, Matt, Scott, Chris, and Andrew (Hill and Lucas, both), who have been there for me to goof off with for the time I worked at the University.

The PIT crew; Jeff, Andy, Nate, Shane, Francisco, Pat, Elliot, Britteny, Ryan, Tommy, Mr. Hokage Sensei, Shawna, and Lyndie; I will love and miss you guys so much.

And then there's the circle; Chris, Tiffani, Paige, Amanda, and Allen. If it weren't for you guys, I don't know what I would have done. You don't know how much I appreciate you, even though I can be a menacing bitch sometimes. You guys deal with it. You're the strongest people I know.

Of course, my Anthony. He has helped me through the bad and the worse. He supports my decisions and dreams. He doesn't laugh at my silly insecurities or what scares me. There are all sorts of things that we share that I know no one else would (or even want to for that matter, ;) understand. He is my partner and my friend, soon to be my husband.

I really appreciate all that everyone of you has done. Also, this is a top-of-my-head list, so if I forgot anyone important (as we all know my memory is for shit really bad) send me a message and I'll promptly add you to one of the above lists.

As I have mentioned, the words will come when you need them, and since I only needed them once, to let you know how I truly feel, I doubt I will be able to reach that level of sentimentality again any time soon.

I love you guys.

2 comments:

TheDividedKing said...

Hopefully you'll pick up on who this is, I like keeping some suspense.

Like I said the other day, I've barely known you a month and I feel like I always have, I can't explain it, and I really don't want to this time. I'm happy just knowing that we're friends. I'm here for you no matter what, anytime, for anything. I'm looking forward to all the fun we're going to have, particularly when I get my better half here.

And I want to thank you for being you and for being around. Since the other day when we all talked something has been different in me, and I like it. Its because of you and you're awesomeness.

Always,
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texnofobix said...

:)