Friday, December 24, 2010

Christmas Haul

Well, other than having time for nothing, I have been getting Christmas presents early. This is my Christmas haul thus far.


From Anthony

From Marylyn


From Red, along with a hot/cold wrap I can't find a picture of.


From Ashley and Adein, along with a box of canned goods.

From my favourite Korean in Minnesota.

Good year.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Where does time go?

It always seems to me like I have more time than I know what to do with, but before I realize it, it's gone. I have class three days a week, and work two, so that should leave me with two free days, right? Wrong. Where does it go? I have been trying to figure it out. Monday, I have class six to ten. What do I do in the early evening? Sleep, eat, read, homework, etc. Tuesday? Same deal. Wednesday? I work noon to five. After five? Relax, do homework, clean the house, spend time with Anthony, etc. Thursday? Class day. Friday? Day off, right? Well, for the most part, but usually I end up working on homework or helping other people with their work/cleaning/babies etc. Saturday? Same deal. Sunday? I work.

Should I start keeping my Fridays free? My Saturdays? I'm not sure how important all of this is.

I'm realizing that those that were there for me the most, I'm hardly around now. I don't like being so busy, and therefore may leave others to their own business and spend more time with my family. Tibbs and Lil, for one, David, Jeanna, and Joyce for another. My heavens, it's Thanksgiving already. It's been years since I've seen David, Jeanna, and Joyce, it's been a month or so since I've seen Tibby and Lil.

Am I really so tired with school? What on earth is it about using one's brain that makes them dead on their days off?

Not that anyone here can tell, but it's almost three in the morning, I work tomorrow, and I'm up blogging.

I just kept thinking; what did I do today? Really. I stayed in bed until one. I got up, worked on my powerpoint. I ate a hot-pocket. I went to class. Got out at eight (finals today, when I was done, I could go). Went home. Tiffani came with (that's a wholly different story there). I watched Legend of the Seeker with Anthony and Tiffani. Then bed. Then no sleeping. Emailed Jeanna, now blog.

Are my priorities screwed? Am I just incredibly tired? I know school is a lot of work. I do have quite a bit of homework, but I need to spend my time off better.

Tibby, if you read this, I now live five minutes away, as opposed to, like, an hour or so, and I have Fridays and Saturdays off, so if you want to come out/want me to come out totally let me know.

Seriously.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Lost by Gregory Maguire

LostMy rating: 2 of 5 stars

From what I knew, Gregory Maguire rewrote stories and fairy-tales into the "true story" for adults, which I enjoyed quite a bit with Wicked.

Lost, however, is a wholly new story that references A Christmas Carol, Jack the Ripper, Peter Pan, and Alice in Wonderland. This sounds like an interesting concept, I'm sure, but while G.M. is throwing the references in here and there, it's like he forgot about the main story line. Winnie/Wendy/Ophelia/Opal the main character comes to town, finds that her cousin (and former lover apparently, but you have to read that in the book, it isn't on the dust jacket or anything), John is missing. She stays in his house, harasses John's neighbors, employers, and girlfriend about his whereabouts (turns out he was just avoiding her). Contractors are fixing the house when she arrives, they bust down a wall and let out a ghost of some sort. The ghost possesses a cat and makes it eat other cats, then possesses an old lady and makes her eat cats, too. While this is going on, you don't know it's a possession, though, you believe that it was just the old lady being bonkers and eating her cats. You find out at the end of chapter 4. Winendophelal throws a temper tantrum at her cousin when he comes back into the picture, she runs away, she goes to see the old lady, and then she herself becomes possessed.

Honestly, if you want to skip the first two chapters all together, just read the back of the book.

The main character answers all questions with a snide remark or another question. Reading Lost is like playing one of those three-dollar PC games where you have to investigate some strange happenings, no one gives you a straight answer, and at the end you find out the bad guy is the person that asked for help in the first place.

I read a lot of bad reviews about the book before I read it. I didn't hear the best things about Wicked before I read it either and I was pleasantly surprised, unfortunately Lost didn't have the same effect on me.

If someone should happen to read it and decide that it is a great book, I would love to speak to this person and get their point of view. I'm almost hoping there was a deeper meaning in there somewhere that I just missed.

Though this was not the best book ever, I'll probably still continue to read Gregory Maguire books just for the twisted fairy-tale fun.


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Sunday, November 07, 2010

The Color Purple by Alice Walker

The Color PurpleMy rating: 4 of 5 stars


Well, the language was a pain to get through, but I read it with a friend, and in discussing the story and what was going on, I became really attached to the characters and their growth as people. If you start to read it, and are having a hard time, find some one to discuss it with.



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Sunday, October 17, 2010

Alice: Madness Returns - Second Teaser Trailer

Apartment Check-List

√ Find apartment that we like that is accepting cats
√ Fork over down-payment to reserve apartment
√ Ohio Edison put in our name (this week)
√ Sign lease papers (next week)
√ Pack (this week and next week)
√ Move (10/28/10)

♥ ♥ ♥ Be happy (forever) ♥ ♥ ♥

Rilo Kiley on Rock Band 3

Rilo Kiley's Portions for Foxes is going to be on Rock Band 3. How do I feel about that? I like Rilo Kiley quite a bit; they're too awesome for words, really. But having them in Rock Band so all of the sudden it's all over the place?

Good or bad, folks? There's a poll in the sidebar, tell me what you think.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

More Alice Stuff for Your Entertainment

Well, as we all now know, American McGee's Alice 2 is well on its way. There have been a slew of other Alice merch since Tim Burton's movie. So, here's a little list love for you.

  • Here we have an Alice in Wonderland game (that looks remarkably like American McGee's version) from Big Fish Games. It's just one of those hidden-object, Where's Waldo businesses, but it looks like it would be fun to goof around with.

  • You can download a free one-hour trial or purchase the full version for $6.99.

  • Then there's ImpendingRiot's Alice is Dead Trilogy. These are reminiscent of a room escape game. They can sometimes be a little easy, but they're cute none-the-less. You can find episodes one, two, and three on Newgrounds.com.

Thursday, October 07, 2010

Tuesday, September 21, 2010


“Suicide is not chosen; it happens
when pain exceeds
resources for coping with pain.”

Friday, September 03, 2010

Ellen Smith

I'm pretty sure she's my nemesis.


Ellen,
Please put a ticket in Kaseya for this as well. thx
Ferin
__________________________________

Ferin,
We don't do Kaseya tix for website updates, just for "problems" and computer issues/breakdowns. Thanks!
Ellen
__________________________________

Ellen,
Oh, I was told it was for any issue that tech support was needed for since it helps us keep track of requests.
Ferin
____________________________

Ferin,
I think K tix are to track issues to see where problems be repeating, whereas the website is in a continuous state of flux. No problem!
Ellen


FML

Thursday, September 02, 2010

New Stuff

Well, had quite a bit of stuff to do today. I bought a few things (for super cheap, mind). Pictures soon, I suppose. Got a cute shirt, jeans that fit, and an adorable dress. Under $30. Yay.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Updates

Well, I've learned how to write a delicious resume and cover letter. Absolutely loving how they look. Helped Nana with hers today. Finished my class with an 89.7%. Started a project bag. Looks like an acorn. It's cute! Well, getting sleepy. Day with Red tomorrow.

Friday, August 27, 2010

Sinus Infections, Quake Live, and Informal Proposals

Well, it's five-o-clock in the fucking morning. And I'm posting a blog. Why am I not curled up in bed with my snuggly husband? Because I have to blow my nose every few seconds, that's why. This sucks. And to top it off, no one is on Quake Live, so I get to sit on the couch doing nothing for the rest of the morning.

Well, in better news, I did my informal proposal presentation today. I got all points; 100%. Ended with an 89.7% in the class. Not so bad for only doing half of the homework.

I love being in school.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

New Layout

Got tired of my damned skinny columns. That right, folks, I'm a thinaphobe. Sue me.

From a template, and though I hate templates, I like how easy they are to manipulate.

Cheers.

American McGee's Alice 2



There's officially a website for it now. Tibbs!!!! Look!!!!

New Segment

New segment on the blog, people. It's called "bg img=". It'll be awesome.

Sunday, August 01, 2010

Alice: Madness Returns

A weekend with Ashley, Louis, and Seam the Ripper

I got to spend a whole day with Ashley, which was totally frickin' awesome. She gave me an adorable headband, which is really similar to this one, but not exactly. We painted our toe-nails, we chatted, we made stupid jokes, and most of all, we relaxed. It was great. She gave me a purse, too. An authentic Louis Vuitton shoulder bag. The zipper was twisted, so I fixed it, but in the process I stabbed my left-hand trigger-finger with the sewing needle (like twelve times), and under my fingernail with a seam ripper. Ouch. It's very sore, but I think it was worth it.





Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Monday, July 19, 2010

Death, Love, and Life

You know, sometimes bad things happen. I miscarried this morning. Though we can't afford to have a child right now, it doesn't stop me from mourning our loss. Though (s)he hadn't been born yet, I love our child with all of my heart. Miscarriage is like a kidnapper, except not only is a child taken away from you, there is no way to get that child back, no chance. Not if you give randsom money, not if you call the police, and not by any other circumstances.
I know my family and friends love me, as they are trying so hard to help, but I really don't need everyone to walk on egg-shells for me. I would rather that everyone go on as usual.
I'm fine. I promise. Our life will go on.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

You All Know Who You Are

________________________________

Red
Was more than just the color
Of your hair
It was the color
Of You
Firecracker
Chili pepper
Rose; thorns included
Beating, bleeding heart
But now you are
Grey-Scale
miHHim
Ghost
White-noise
Faded
Gauzy
Ashen
Have paled
Just as you have gone
Beyond the pale
Compared to what you were
You seem more
First Name
Than a carnal conspicuous chroma
Or even
So-and-so's wife
Sublime; sans self
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We were family
Then
I ran
Not from you
or Yours
but from Him
I left
at the most opportune
Moment
I wish I could have
bided my time
Just a little longer
Just for you
Jougs holding me back
Oubliette of despair
________________________________

We lived together for
A while
We fought beside each other for
A while
We fought against each other for
A while
We moved away from each other for
Our own good
We saw each other less and less for
Our own good
We are moving farther apart for
Our own good
________________________________

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Updates (because that's the only thing I can type anymoreBELIEVEIT)

  • So, my boss gave me my very own project at work. It's AWESOME!
  • I am still hating math. Yuck. (When the fuck are we ever going to need to use f(x)=mx+b IRL???)
  • I haven't been knitting. NO TIME!!!
  • I have SciFi's (I refuse to spell it SyFy) version of Alice on DVD. Cat_Like_Thief; we need a movie day.
  • Hoping to see Eclipse in theatres with Red and Pabs.
  • Facebook is pissing me off.
  • Red be having hubbeh issues. Poor dear.

Saturday, May 08, 2010

More Updates for your Pleasure (or pain)

  • Work is picking up
  • Counseling is almost over
  • Midterm next week
  • I made a new friend; his name is Arpad-- No shit.
  • I miss my cousin. Love to teh Tibby.
  • Also, homework. Lots and lots of homework.
  • That is all.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Yet another thing that gives me nightmares... 04

Big solar prominence, blow to Earth's magnetic field tomorrow




"The expanding cloud could deliver a glancing blow to Earth's magnetic field around April 15th. NOAA forecasters estimate a 35% chance of polar geomagnetic activity when the CME arrives."

What is going to happen? It's already after the 15th. Why are there never any follow-up stories about this stuff?


Via Boing Boing

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Dead Bodies, Zombies, and Parasites

I am sick and in a dark mood, so I have a few fun things.

Stationary of Horror is a lovely collection of morbid stationary for almost every occasion.

Zombie Girl with Brain Cake in 3D. Enough said.

Fighting Allergies by Mimicking Parasitic Worms. What is this world coming to?

UPDihatebeingsickATES

  • I have pink eye
  • I have a sinus infection
  • I have a double ear infection
  • I finished another sleeve
  • School is terrible (boooooorinnnnnng)
  • My eyes itch like crazy and I SO want to rub them
  • Need to make doctor's appointment
  • Call Paige
  • Prescription
  • Chapter 13, quick check A and B

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

Getting Healthy

Well, nothing seems as devastating as it has before. I can handle little disappointments, as well as big ones, healthily. Though I'm more aware of my entire body, not just my head, everything seems so much more real. And painful. Things that would hurt, do. Things that would hurt bad, do. Things that shouldn't hurt at all, don't. It's like I'm alive, now. It's like I exist. And so does everyone else. Like all of the sudden, it's real. I don't want to sleep all of the time, or avoid my problems, I like being at home and going places, it just depends on the day. It's the best feeling I've ever had. Not that all of my problems are gone, they aren't. They just don't seem so bad now.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Friday, March 05, 2010

A Tribute to Our Friendship

Looking back...

hoodie

viking

rini

devilcop

...at all of the great time we've spent...

bikerbraids

penguinpoint

goofychristinatam

goodchristinatam

...with hats...

ferintam

redfedora

goofyblue

...makes me realize we need more good times with shoes.


letsgetsomeshoes

Happy Belated Birthday, Christina.

Happy Unbirthday to Christina

And here, since I have been horrible and did not celebrate her birthday, a tribute to her unbirthday.


Wednesday, March 03, 2010

Sigh of Relief

Well, a few updates since it's been a bit:

  • I had my interview today. I have a pretty good feeling about it.
  • Anthony and I are doing much better.
  • Passed my last class with an 82%. I was expecting mid-seventies.
  • I've had more things to do and have been more scatterbrained than usual.

That's about it.

Monday, February 22, 2010

YouTube Video - Tattoo of the Sun

They gave my video back!!!

Loss of a Relationship - 7 Stages of Loss

Loss of a relationship

The second most intense life stress, after death, is divorce or loss of a love relationship. Most of us beyond 14 or 16 have felt the intense pain and anguish of being rejected by a lover. Many writers have dealt with marital problems and the long, distressful process of divorce. Kessler (1975) described seven stages of divorce:



Stage 1: Disillusionment

After the bliss of falling in love (with the ideal person for you), a new idea sneaks into your mind: your lover has some faults. You may begin "psychologizing," e.g. "he is very self-centered," "she is nagging like my mother," "he flirts with women to hide his sexual fears," "she gets a lot more involved with the children than she does with me," etc. If these feelings grow in either person, without being resolved, the relationship is in trouble.



Stage 2: Erosion

The disappointments and fault-finding reduce the love and attraction. They may not know what is wrong or what to say. If the relationship is becoming a little strained, this is the best time to have a good, straight talk or to seek marriage counseling. If no changes are made, a lot of destructive interactions may take place: put each other down, compete for attention, spend money carelessly, find new interests, watch each other critically, avoid each other, stop "confiding" or having sex.



Stage 3: Detachment

Each disappointment hurts. "Love dies a thousand deaths." Lovers pull away to avoid hurts and sadness. If the isolation continues, it becomes more and more difficult to return to being lovers. Sometimes only one person is in the detachment stage; that is enough to kill the relationship. In this stage, the couple share and talk little, imply that "I don't care" even though they're hurting, and begin to think of other possible partners. They can't decide to leave or not. Often anger sets in--anger makes it easier to decide to separate.



Stage 4: Physical separation

Separating is a sure sign the relationship has failed. Before, you might say, "we aren't getting along; we're fighting a lot," but now the relationship is gone--lost. There are many reactions to separation: often it is a painful, crushing void, sometimes if you have wanted out for a long time it is a relief, usually there is loneliness, fear, and feelings of failure. There are many adjustments to make--new place to live, new routine, new people, etc.



Stage 5: Mourning and letting go

We mourn the loss of a partner, even one who has caused us pain. It is the loss of a dream, if nothing else. We rid ourselves of the "ghosts" of our past love, give up hope of reconciliation, and realize the ex-lover is gone forever. Usually there is a mix of intense emotions: sadness, anger, guilt, fear, hope. Often we spend hours reliving the old relationship--how awful he/she was, how it should have been, whose fault it was, etc. The person needs to "work through" these old emotions. Eventually, he/she will decide to get on with his/her life.



Stage 6: A new life.

The focus shifts from the past to the future. Sometimes there is even an obsession with a new interest or life-style--new clothes and looks, drinking, seducing and partying, or complete involvement with work and planning a new career or volunteering to help in some social-political movement. Some are eager to find love again, others hate the opposite sex, others are scared of emotional involvement. In some ways it's like being a teenager again.



Stage 7: Healthy adjustment

With luck, one emerges from a broken relationship wiser, tougher, stronger, and mellower. You have found some good friends and made reasonable plans for the future. You are no longer so worried you can't sleep at nights and, although life is hard, you are ready to move on to something better. Each person is different. Some skip stages; some get stuck in a stage; some slide through the stages quickly and silently. Seldom do a divorcing couple start and go through the same stages at the same time. The earlier a couple attends to problems, the better. It is an unending task of true lovers to be sure the fun and affection outweigh the boredom and resentment. If you are stuck in stage 2 or 3 for a few weeks and can't work it out or get your partner to seek counseling together, go by yourself. If you are still mourning a former relationship (that obviously had problems) after more than two or three months, seek some help with speeding up the recovery process.



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Saturday, February 20, 2010

Ways To Be Charitable That Don't Cost

Being charitable doesn't always mean forking over your hard earned (if you even have any) cash. I donate to places when I can, but when that isn't an option, there are other ways to be charitable.



hexidecimalhack invites you to SocialVibe.com

On SocialVibe.com you complete tasks for a cause that you choose. I chose To Write Love On Her Arms (on SocialVibe); a charity for suicide prevention. Every 100 points you earn gives 9 minutes of suicide prevention online or over the phone. Join SocialVibe and pick a cause.


Fight World Hunger

FreeRice is one of the best charities I've seen. It is basically a trivia game. There are many subjects. For every answer you get right, FreeRice donates 10 grains of rice to the United Nations World Food Programme.



FreePoverty.com is similar to FreeRice. Unfortunately they do not have a sponsor right now.


free charity donation word game

Charitii.com is a multiple choice crossword. There are five charities to choose from; charity : water, Invisible Youth Network, The Nature Conservancy, The Oaktree Foundation, and Philippine Aide Society.


The Hunger Site


The Hunger Site is the quickest and easiest way to donate. You just click the "Click here to give - it's free" button once a day.