Thursday, December 29, 2011

You Eclipsed by Me - Atreyu

I BEGAN MY ASCENT AT MINUS ZERO
YOU MADE SO SURE OF THAT YOU
TRIED TO KEEP ME DOWN HERE
YOUR COMPLACENCY HAS BEEN YOUR DOWNFALL
NOBODY MADE YOU KING OF THE WORLD
AND I AM HERE TO DETHRONE
SO KISS THE RING MOTHERFUCKER
IT’S MY TIME, MY TIME TO SHINE
GRASPING FOR THE STRAWS AS THEY FALL
MAYBE YOU CAN MAKE A SPLINT FOR YOUR BROKEN EGO
FOR YOUR BROKEN EGO

And I say thank you for the scars
And the guilt and the pain
Every tear that I’ve never cried
Has sealed your fucking fate
Did you take me for a fool
Or were you just to blind to see
That every effort made has failed
And there is no destroying me

HATE CAN BE A POSITIVE EMOTION
WHEN IT FORCES YOU TO BETTER YOURSELF
YOU BUILT ME, CONSTRUCTED MY DESIRE
PERFECTED MY HATRED
NOW I’M DRIVEN TO BE TEN TIMES BETTER THAN YOU THINK YOU ARE
TEN TIME BETTER THAN YOU THINK YOU ARE
PIECE BY PIECE I’VE BUILT MY WALLS
AND BURNED THE BRIDGES DOWN
THAT LEAD BACK TO PEOPLE LIKE YOU
SO FULL OF MALICE, SO FULL OF SCORN
YOU TRIED TO YOUR BEST TO CRUSH MY SPIRIT
YOU TRIED TO STEAL MY SOUL
YOU PUSHED ME BACK AGAINST THE WALL
AND I BROKE IT DOWN

I will not be broken
Though I am the one that bleeds
I will not be broken
I am the one

I WILL NOT BE BROKEN
THOUGH I AM THE ONE THAT BLEEDS
I WILL NOT BE BROKEN
I AM THE ONE

I WILL NOT BE BROKEN
THOUGH I AM THE ONE THAT BLEEDS
I WILL NOT BE BROKEN
I AM THE ONE

And I say thank you for the scars
And the guilt and the pain
Every tear that I’ve never cried
Has sealed your fucking fate
Did you take me for a fool
Or were you just too blind to see
That every effort made has failed
And there is no destroying me

There is no destroying me
No there is no destroying me

Thursday, December 15, 2011

I hate looking at myself. I don't know if I've ever mentioned that. I don't like how I look, so I don't think about it. It's not even that I don't want people to see me, because that doesn't bother me. But you know what? I bother me. I hate how I look. I disgust myself. For the most part I'm okay, but the pictures really seem to point out all of my flaws.

I hate that.

Thursday, December 01, 2011

My chest hurts every time I try to think of your face. It's been too long and too upsetting to visit those closest to you. I wish I could talk to you. You're one of the only people who ever really believed in me and understood me. I miss you, Ashley, I wish I could tell you I love you just one more time.